Having to choose between two different equal things can be very difficult. It is now quite obvious that one of them will not be yours.
I can tell you that those options, if they have choices they would want to be your priority or not in your option list. During the choosing period, you should know that your feelings are being toiled with and what is yours can never be taken away from you.
Make a random selection to the best of your ability and know that, that was meant for you.